I'm miserable without you
So much that I have to
Let go of my home town
Brooklyn I was so proud
I'm leaving New York...for California

Been gone for a bit. Oh welly~ How's life, void?

Wouldn't it be nice if things were nice
If I didn't go blaming myself all of the time
Wouldn't it be grand if I could hold both hands
And learn to love life as it is

 I wrote this about a guy I liked who didn't like me then did like me but didn't really like me and liked my best friend again. It was kind of stupid, and pretty petty, and very immature...but now we're all god, and he's super cool in my eyes. Here's some pissed off lyrics I wrote to him though.

Do you recall the time I was sitting on your bed?

You gave me a thimble, I looked up, and we both leaned in

Do you think about it sometimes? 

All the memories in my head kill me at night

They play over again

Why was I so stupid?

Was it God or Satan that lead you to me?

Lead me to believe everything that you said...

Tell me, how could you do this?

The one I trust, my best friend

I've never loved you more than I did back then

And I'd believe you if you lied to me again

"I gave you everything, you gave me nothing, I wasn't selfish i just wanted something. A sign would help, a glimpse of hope all I got was pain, but I will cope. I was told so many times to just move on, to just let it go, all I did was shake my head and kept say no. But you hurt me so much, one time to much, so goodbye to those feelings, I'm done and such." -DaVaughn

Trying to figure out how I'm going to take a Mountain Dew can and tack it properly to my wall. New things, new things...but other then that, I'm doing pretty swell today. Reflecting on some stuff and what not. I'm going over to my friend Brandon's house tomorrow, we're probably going to end up chilling. I don't want things to get awkward though. Me and him used to have this weird on and off kind of dating thing going on, and then I dropped it for Calin. I just don't want things to go wrong. I know that they probably won't but still the chance is always there, ya' know? Oh well...I'm still excited :)

I think I'm just bothered by how truly bitter and assholy some of the people from my Highlands are. I'm honestly glad I don't go there now, I wish to never go there again.

I saw my friend a few days ago
He smiled and pulled me into a hug
He asked me how I've been doing lately
I cried and clung to his shirt
He held me tightly in his arms
He said "I know it's strange
But I've been waiting for this very moment."
I had forgotten what it was like
To be captured in his embrace
To see the ridges of his mouth
Form into a wide smile
I remeber now how it felt
To be pressed against his chest
Taking in every scent
That his body gave to me
He played at the ends of my hair
With his fingers twirling around
I stopped crying and just hummed
Wondering what he now thought
He pulled me away and looked down
Sliding his thumb across my cheek
We stared at each other wordlessly
Not wanting the moment to rest
I opened my mouth to speak
But became flooded with air
Had I not been breathing?
My eyes were frantic while his were calm
He focused on me like I had not moved
Air continued to fill my lungs
I couldn't cough it away
It continued to choke me
I shrunk to the ground
Looking forward, he was still there
Looking down, he was far away
One realizing that he's gone
I sink down, letting the air fill my lungs
When I opened my eyes I saw a ceiling
Felt sweat rolling down my face
Could see my hands shaking on to of me
I rolled over staring into a wall
Just as empty as the ceiling
I know it's strange
But I've been thinking of that very moment