Bah, I always seem to have a question on my mind to ask someone, and then once I do, the answer isn't at all what I expected it to be. It makes me wonder if I'm just asking the question because I'm expecting a certain kind of answer, or asking because I'm legitimately curious. I doubt my intentions a lot of the time, which (as a Christian, and as a person in general) becomes extremely, extremely frustrating. I want to be a person who can say what I mean and mean what I say, but I seriously have no idea how to...at all. That's one of the reasons I like Calin so much. In a lot of areas, he's just like me, so I feel like all we're really capable of doing is bringing each other up instead of letting each other down. When it was me and Zach, all we ever really did was let each other down, all the time. It was nearly impossible to bring each other up. I was too stubborn, and he was too prideful. It was a strange match that only really did more harm than good, as much as we both tried to do good. There were a lot of misunderstandings based off of our lack of communication, and I was always trying to see him in a certain kind of light or darkness instead of just seeing him how he was. I'm slowly learning to stop that...I'm finally starting to think about the things that he tells me, instead of just questioning them and doubting them. I'm going backpacking in a couple days with some people from my Church. Zach's going to be there...I'm hoping that me and him will be able to talk or something, or at least maybe clear some things up. I really just don't want another misunderstanding, and I really would like to become an okay friend to him.